Sickest I've Ever Been

While I don't want to sound worse than I was I do believe that I have just experienced the sickest I have ever been; at least since I've been diagnosed with cancer.

So it started with over 6 hours of chemotherapy on Thursday. I woke up on Friday feeling pretty well. On Friday our daughter visited from Florida and on Saturday we all spent the day doing some shopping in Greenville.

On Sunday I woke up a lot weaker than I have in a long time. Still, God's strength is made perfect when I am at my weakest. I went to church Sunday morning and preached quite possibly the worst sermon I've preached in 26 years. My mind couldn't remember simple words and I had so much trouble staying on task. I'm so glad my church loves me and understood. They smiled and understood what I was fighting through as they smiled at me.

After church, we returned home and I felt so tired and worn out I slept from 1pm to 5pm and stayed awake afterward but felt terrible. I went to bed at 8pm and woke up at 6am Monday. I will tell you, I was so weak and sick on Monday that I only left my recliner about 10 minutes all day. I was asleep more on Monday than I was awake. If you said a prayer for me yesterday I thank you so much. I was so weak that Mandy, my wife, was my strength in everything.

But today is a new day. I woke up at 6am with my wife getting ready for work and today I feel - alive. I'm still a little sleepy but I feel 100x better this morning than I felt yesterday. Lesson for me, no more busy Fridays or Saturdays. Until surgery I have to remember that I am sick. I praise God for reminding me to rest because I tried to make it stand up to cancer and it beat me down. So here is my promise for my church people. I will be rested for the next two Sundays and I promise to share God's word well. Now if everyone will promise to pray for me until surgery on October 27, I'll give it my best. And right now my best is rest.