No news yet but lots of pain.

I haven't heard from the surgeons yet and probably won't until after the biopsy results are released. The doctor told me that we should learn one of two things from the biopsy:

1. The cancer (which he is convinced I have) has not entered the bone of my jaw and the tumor will be a removed without having to mess with my jaw.
2. The cancer has entered the bone. If so, they will have to remove some of the bone and graft in bone from my leg.

Personally I would be fine to find out he's wrong and there's no cancer.

Until then the truth is that I am experiencing two things. Pain and faith. I am hurting more than I have ever hurt before. I've broken multiple bones before. I've been cut by glass to the bone on both hands. And this is the most pain I've ever experienced. I take Hydrocodone every 6 hours and they have the same effect on me if they were jelly beans.

In spite of all of this, I trust Jesus. I know that He allows us to experience pain. And He still loves us. I don't know why He lets us hurt so badly but I know He has a purpose and it is to lead me to something better. It's what I've known for years as painful grace. Sometimes He takes the pain away in our lives. Sometimes He does not. He is good either way and while He may never tell us why He has a good plan.