God Knew Before Me

So I am still at Prisma Hospital in Greenville (South Carolina for this not near). Today is the night of September 3. And God has shown me where I was wrong.

I Was Wrong 1:
The hospital has been great. Their care and compassion as been unlike I have seen before. It was hard before getting a room but the days since have corrected me.

I Was Wrong 2:
I though there is no on coming to see me. I figure that everyone I knew had others to see. Boy I was wrong. Yesterday, first I had two pastor friends from other Walhalla. Pastor Jeremy Garrett from Open Door Baptist Church. In with him was Pastor Jeremy Beauford from College Street Baptist Church. Add into all of that was the guy filling in for me at church - Pastor Brad Bessent.
The doors got opened for me as one of my best friends came and brought the kindest gift from his church - Pastor Chad Smith. All of these guys have become brothers to be.
And then it was family - not biological but church family - Cathy , her mom Janet , and her sister Sandy. I love those ladies like family.

I Was Wrong 3:
I have arguing and listening to others that I need the surgery as soon as possible, and I was wrong. I learned that my doctor was not holding off my surgery to be stubborn. He was doing so to protect me.
He explained to me that my tumor is some of the most violent that he has ever seen. He said that without therapy before the surgery (chemotherapy) we would have little chance to get it all. He told me that doing chemo and another therapy for a couple week prior surgery we could hopefully shrink it and calm it down. We would then be able to get it all. For the first time in my life a doctor sat next to me and explained how bad everything was in as compassionate way I've ever hear. He cares so much about my disease that he help my had talking to me and told me "I'm going to give you everything if you'll trust me.

HELP ME TRUST
Help me trust God,
Help me trust this doctor as we try to defeat this old evil Cancer in the power and strength of God.