Broken

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Today I feel as physically broken as I ever have. I feel more sickness than I have in my life. I have pain in the areas where my cancer is, I am so constipated (I have only pooped twice this month).

Most of all, Satan is taunting me. Satan is telling me how much of a failure I am. He wan'ts me to know that I don't deserve what I have and should loose everything.

Satan tells me every day that the church will grow too tired of waiting on me to get well and will fire me any day now.

I know the truth of Christ. I know the goodness of God but as broken as I am I simply tell Jesus that I believe and to help my unbelief.

My surgery center contacted me this morning and told me the surgery date has been changed to October. 27. Pray for me as I wrestle with that. I know on one hand that God has me. On the other hand I feel completely abandoned, broken, and alone.

Pray for me.